MYdays.. MYlife.. MYstory..

Feb.14.2012 o_O

Tue, 14 Feb 2012 11:30:20 -0500

So today is that time again. The 14th of Feb. Where all the love birds in the world are celebrating there happy going relationships.. But to me its just another regular day, with a chance of rain Haha :) but there’s no need to be sad and low. Cuz you have yourself and your love ones to love. Just be glad that your alive and well.. So happy SINGLES day to the ones that don’t have a valentine and heres a few mindful thoughts that i hope will put a smile on your face… :)

Its good to be single because: -you don’t have to get a gift for anyone.. Spoil yourself. Shoot! -there’s no need for drama -there’s no need to cry about it all -there’s no need to lie Its just me, myself, and I and ill be good..

miss it but i dont...

Wed, 25 Jan 2012 06:00:21 -0500

//i ~~miss~~ falling asleep on the phone with someone at night
\i love sleeping in with no one to bug me in the morning
//i ~~miss~~ someone to hang out with
\thats why i have friends RIGHT?!?
//i ~~miss~~ knowing that someones there for you
\i love having some much free time to myself

and….. i love not being nagged where i am all the time.
\thats what i have my mom for lol

OH to be single is such a great thing at times. But you can never help but be jealous at times.

When the right time comes you’ll know it.. but dont wait to long, because you never know they might be right there beside you and once you turn around and try to grab it.. they’re gone. you just lost your chance.. SMH

Good night/ good morning to all

my NEW baby

Fri, 13 Jan 2012 04:20:24 -0500

Toyota Corolla S 2012 :)

A new beginning pt 2

Fri, 13 Jan 2012 04:14:05 -0500

So i find myself still awake at this time blogging on tumblr.. hhhhmmmmm… my ass needs to go to sleep soon.. :) well anyways……….

I’ve been thinking all day about what I should start doing. You know.. now that its a new year, and we aren’t getting any younger. so here are my THOUGHTS for today and hopefully I pull through.

1) drink 3 bottles of water a day. (1 before every meal)
2) make a set schedule for a workout plan
-SUNDAY (8am) walk the dogs at the park early in the morning
-MONDAY take a walk around the neighborhood in the afternoon after work or play CD :) -TUESDAY 30min workout in the morning
-WEDNESDAY 30min workout in the morning
-THURSDAY 1hr workout in the morning or walk the dogs
-FRIDAY 1hr workout in the morning
-SATURDAY (8am) walk the dogs at the park early in the morning
3) eat small portions (only one meal with rice)

lets see how long this will last. who’s with me for the summer??

A new beginning pt 1

Sat, 31 Dec 2011 06:07:00 -0500

20-11 is already coming to an end.. so let me go back to recap what happen with in the whole year.

Relationships:
-Dated someone that i thought i loved.
-Had sex with someone that i thought i had feelings for. (but it turned out to be just a rebound.
-Fell for guys with good looks but didnt have everything that i wanted in a man.

awake at this time

Wed, 14 Sep 2011 06:14:01 -0400

Why am I still awake and longing for you. To be on the phone like nothing happen. I want to call you so bad. And just sleep with you til the morning come. But I can’t and I won’t. Cuz I need to search for something new. To take my mind of you. To take away this so called pain that I felt for you. Why is this hard? When I broke it of with you and to know that your with someone new hurt my soul like a sharp pain going through. I don’t know when ill ever let you go. I don’t even know if I should let you know.

i should of known..

Tue, 13 Sep 2011 21:44:14 -0400

I should of known that everything that happen between us was for nothing. you wanted it.. i wanted it and nothing more or less out of it.

These pass few days have been something different. So many thoughts running through my mind i couldn’t keep up with it. Just the thought of you holding her, hurts my soul. I couldn’t help but say the truth, to just let you know. I missed you.(just a lil) Whenever I look at my bed it reminds me of you. When I close my eyes I could still feel your kisses all over me and your touch was just something new. I couldn’t stay away from you. But all is said and done. your here.. I’m here.. I know that will never change.

But does this meaning that I still love you? (NO.) But does this mean that I still want you? (NO.) or Does this mean that Ill always be around? (idk?)

Cant these thoughts just stay out of my head. Cant i just move on??

Im so proud of her.. 3rd place baby! next year we’ll go for 2nd place..

Tue, 13 Sep 2011 20:57:30 -0400

Im so proud of her.. 3rd place baby! next year we’ll go for 2nd place..

life goes on....

Sun, 21 Aug 2011 18:29:05 -0400

Life is like a roller coaster. You have those highs and you have those. But all that you can do is stand back up and keep pushing. There no turning back.

Like me. I know that in my life they’re a lot of highs and lows. But I know for now I am happy to be single and enjoying every moment of almost being 21 because all that I can think of right now is the future and make the best of it. No turning back now.

highs and lows of life:

-broken family
+happier then ever without you near us.
-not what i wanted [ex]
+better late then never

WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?

Sun, 21 Aug 2011 17:54:14 -0400

My earliest human memory should be me being one of those bad kids that cant keep their hands to themselves and end up going to the hospital for what I have done.

my thoughts

Fri, 07 Jan 2011 21:25:59 -0500

how can you forget about someone, knowing that everywhere you look, hear or smell. it just reminds you of them. is that hard to believe. is that hard to think. that that one person is actually gone right before your eyes.. why cant we just all forget and start over. knowing that the day will never stand still when you want it to. it will only move faster and faster. we’re not getting any younger, so lets just all help each other out. knowing that you’ll get there a lot faster in time.

WOW!! how there is so many things running through my mind. knowing that im not the only one thats thinking things through. I love you for who you are. but yet you always tend to let me down and then as the days go by it happens ones again. its a never ending story for all of us. but yet we are the only ones to fix it. know your own mistake. dont pass it to other.

should i be with you or just live without you. thats my question that needs to be answered. but yet i just tend to push it aside that think that all the thoughts in my head will all go away.. NO! not now, not ever!

i dont know what else to say.. so imma go for now.. peace..love..harmony

my new years resolution for 2011

Fri, 31 Dec 2010 09:41:43 -0500

WOW! a year has pass by and i didnt even realize it. time flys as we all get older and this year ill be 21. SHOOT! so before 2010 leaves me for good, heres my resolution for the next coming year of 20-11.

1.] save up money
2.] stop spending alot of money on fast food
3.] read a good book or two
4.] take the gym seriously and pay it off
5.] get a credit card (to start my credit)

and here are the good and bad of 20-10

[GOOD] i got my license
[bad] not knowing what i want in life
[GOOD] i got my first car
[bad] my dad left us to be a hore in sf
[GOOD] that i have leon by my side no matter what i go through.

so i hope we all have a great new year and a HAPPY 20-11 EVERYONE!!

she does this left and right..

Thu, 31 Dec 2009 03:46:41 -0500

each and every time she does this to us like its nothing. its like a never ending story and then she expects us to feel sorry for her.. shit.. shouldnt she feel sorry for us.. we're her children and husband.. that work hard for our own money and she just think that we'll always give into her needs.. what about ours?? do we all have a say in our lives?? like i wanna save up for college and so does ateh. but how can we.. if shes pulling us down with her.. its like sometime.. i just feel like running away.. just for a day or two.. not worrying about home or what not..just run away with leon.. his like my fresh breath of air when it comes to everything that happens at home.. because do to him. he has no clue what i think about when ever i sit anywhere near my parents. i feel like shit..i feel like crying.. i feel like my own mother doesnt care one single bit.. like i can leave and she wouldnt care or die right in front of her and no feelings would show.. my mothers heartless.. heartless i tell you.. i dont even know how she can even wake up every morning and face the world with so many problems on her mind.. its like i ask the lord.. WHY ME?? WHY US??
its like i feel hella bad for my dad.because he doesnt deserve this.. any of this.. cuz fuck yah my dad had his mistakes back in the day but not as bad ass this..
and the funny thing is that when i talk to my mom now a days.. she says that shes going to move back to the philippines and i just laugh.. like thats ever going to happen.. she has no fucking money..

IDK MAN!!! IM SPEACHLESS!! FOREAL!!
PEACE